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“I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I intended to be.”


I'd say this quote is more for me but it really sums me up. I am so blessed with all the gifts God has brought into my life. Especially you and the baby. I'm so excited to have our little family, even though it wasn't planned or expected, I'm happy to be starting this very exciting journey with you and can't wait to see what the next 70 years bring. :)

Laura's Graduation

Laura shot gunning a beer...Painful

It was great seeing Laura walk across that stage. I felt like a mother watching her daughter walk for the first time. She couldn't stop smiling and laughing. It really was the best thing to watch and totally worth going! She seemed to have a pretty good time at the party. I was tired and mainly took pictures and didn't socialize too much. I made friends with a girl at the party who was willing to talk with me most of the night saving me from the awkward conversations I generally have with Laura's family. I was so whooped by the time everyone left. I think we finally went to bed around 1 or so after cleaning up and getting settled. Here's a little glimpse of Laura's big night!

 Self explanatory lol

 Tarnowski clan. Uncle Bob, Tara, Aunt Joan, Lisa, LT, Matt, and Amy, matts wife

 Laura, her bro Matto, and Kaitlyn

Laura, Uncle Pat, and Kaitlyn

Farm Fun

Here's a few photos from our farm trip. Too cute!

So today..

Cal text me today...

He asked me if we tied the knot before you left.

I asked him who the hell told him that and no.

He told me he found your diary and you had written it in there.

For a second, he really had me going. And trust me, I was going to tease you to high heaven for having an actual diary.

Then I called his bluff and he told me he was just screwing with me.

Him and Robb apparently had a bet. He said we had gotten married, Robb said we hadn't. lol

What is wrong with your friends? :p

Ranger Baby

This one comes in all colors!!! I like it the best.





I'm sure you get my point. There is lots of stuff out there super easy to find! :)

Tangled

In the movie Tangled, Disney's version of Rapunzel, the hero is a guy named Flynn Ryder. And all he can talk about is how good looking he is and how the ladies can't resist him when he does....the Smolder. This...is you.



Bahahahaaha....aha....aha....ha :D

Summer's Easter Hunt

This is Summer and her class after their Easter egg hunt at school. They were only allowed 12 eggs. That's 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12 eggs. That's what they all kept saying. Giggles. Notice she looks like a go-go girl. I dress my child so stylish. lol

Summer in sweet dreams..

This is what I rolled over to find the other night... I'd say she is totally covered and protected, wouldn't you? :)

Busy week

Hi Love,

Seems this week will be full of distractions which as you know, are always welcome. :) Today's distraction wasn't really a positive one but none the less has served as a distraction. Laura's dad is in the hospital. They think he has a blood clot some where. I just picked Laura up from the hospital not too long ago to feed her and let her crash in my bed. She came over in the middle of the night last night because she didn't want to be alone. She's going to spend today with us and later we will head back to the hospital later. We might go out to shop around to serve as a distraction to all.

Tomorrow I'll be heading down to Columbus to talk with my lawyer. I'm glad we are meeting as separate time before court so we can discuss everything that needs to be changed. I'm trying to decide if I am going to update him on our situation. I might discuss it with him but not bring it up in court. I don't know..what are your thoughts about it?

Wednesday I am going with Summer and her class on a field trip to a local farm. Summer is super excited. She can't wait to go with all her friends and see the animals. I hope it's that kind of farm. lol I think it'll be fun too, I just know it is going to be hot as heck. :p Melting mommy is gonna be a funny sight.

Thursday is the only day I don't think I have anything going on. Might try to catch dinner with grammy or something since it's a free day. She's always asking about you. I didn't see her much yesterday. Just at church and then she rushed off afterwards. I was planning on having lunch with her but I wasn't feeling well enough to go over and deal with the smoke.

Then comes Friday! Laura is graduating Friday night! :D I am so excited. A lot of her family will be in town and then the paaaaaaaaartay starts after that. I'm not sure how that's going to go for me but we shall see. I told her I might stay for a little bit and then head home. I've been assured there won't be much drinking as that party is Saturday night. lol Reassuring for sure. Which then brings me to Saturday..

Saturday I have an order to do for red velvet cupcakes. Then we have Laura's second party at her house that night. That will be more of our local friends which should be fun. I think I'll be bowing out of that party early as well. I say early meaning like...midnight or one because for everyone else, that'll be early. I'm debating making a cake to surprise her with. I'll see how I'm feeling.

So, I'd say over all, I've left few hours to cry over missing you. :) I promise I'll post something more interesting  soon....just gotta think of what.

Easter Prayers

How Blessed Is The Day

How blessed is this day, when earth and heaven are joined and humankind is reconciled to God!

May the light of Jesus shine continually to drive away all darkness. May Christ, the Morning Star who knows no setting, find his light ever burning in our hearts—he who gives his light to all creation, and who lives and reigns for ever and ever. Amen.

-- adapted from the Book of Common Prayer -1979, the Protestant Episcopal Church in the United States of America.

A Prayer for Easter Morning

0 Lord Jesus Christ, who upon this day did conquer death and rise from the dead,
and who are alive for ever more, help us never to forget your Risen Presence forever with us.

Help us to remember,

That you are with us in every time of perplexity to guide and to direct;
That you are with us in every time of sorrow to comfort and console;
That you are with us in every time of temptation to strengthen and to inspire;
That you are with us in every time of loneliness to cheer and befriend;
That you are with us even in death to bring us to the glory of your side.

Make us to be certain that there is nothing in time or in eternity which can separate us from you,so that in your presence we may meet life with gallantry and death without fear. 

You turn our darkness into light, in your light we shall see light.

Lord in your mercy, hear our prayer.
Christ the Lord is risen today!
ALLELUIA

My new prayer

hail mary...help me not strangle him through the phone or pc...full of grace....how did you not clobber joseph during ur preganacy...the lord is with thee...why wont this jelly bean chill out for a day or two...blessed art thou amongst women...help me through this despite everyone else's ignorance and meanness...and blessed is the fruit of thy whom jesus...love my jelly bean....holy mary...i love you....mother of god...thank you for blessing me with a loving man and beautiful children....pray for us sinners....help me through this....now and at the hour of our death...for ever and ever amen.


Laura wrote this for me. I think it's awesome and sooooooooooo hilarious. It will be my new prayer. To explain the part I know you need me to, I'm just dealing with things a bit differently right now. I don't know why I'm off about everything but I'm pretty sure it has a lot to do with the mood swings, if not everything to do with it. I'm allowed to be up and down from time to time. Hence why I didn't want to have another in depth chat on fb when I knew I wasn't in a dealing mood. Thank you for baring with me. I'm really trying my best to not be too difficult. I love you so... And I am so happy for our little one.

I could make a deal..

I've been researching hospitals in TN that have good maternity wards. I found this one in Nashville, which yes, is 50 mins away but that's not that far considering. But I really like the feel from their website about how their maternity ward is run. It also is well designed and offers a lot of information which I found a lot of the other hospitals did not. Obviously, we will have to go do a walk through to see what you and I both think but I think I would be comfortable having our little one there. I'm going to upload their site so you can take a look at it when you have a chance. Mom and I are going to take a trip up to TN to explore where we could look for a house. I'm gonna ask her to do a walk through at the hospital with me too if that's ok with you. That way I can meet the drs and get a feel from them sooner than later. The longer I am under their care the more comfortable I will be with having the baby in TN. Is that ok?

http://thewomenshospital.com/about/

Check out the virtual tours if you can. Cool. lol

I can't be certain...

The past two days I swear I can feel a little flutter in my tummy. They say you can't really feel the baby until 16 weeks but I'm telling you, every so often, I feel a bump in my tummy. They say second time moms and so on can feel it earlier because you know what it feels like. I swear he's moving and bump'n around in there. :) It's not something you can feel from the outside but I can really feel in on the inside. It makes me smile.

I think it's funny how you are generally right when it comes to us. You are always reminding me that I have you to fall on and you to be my rock. I don't know why it is so hard for me to allow that to happen. I guess it makes me vulnerable and I suck at that. I'm used to those who matter the most eventually taking back their love and the unconditional. I guess I'm just waiting for you to do that. I know that's crazy, but the other night, it was all I could think about. The day you would no longer want me and what that would be like. Where we will be in our lives and so on.. I know that's not fair but it's my biggest fear. I know that's why I push so hard against you and it being just you and I. But I know that's how we are supposed to be. It's supposed to be you leaning against me and me leaning against you. I need you to be the constant in my life. No one else can be. I guess having the baby and thinking about our life makes me see that and allow myself to be content with it. I want us to be happy together, friends or family involved doesn't really matter. I need you with me at the hospital, no one else. I want you by my side during all the late nights and having you to hold me in our bed. I want our life together, always. I'm past the point of caring any more about anyone else. I am so happy we are having a baby together. I am so happy we are starting our life together. How dare I let anyone take that joy from me! Not any more. It's you and me love. As long as you'll have me forever and always, I want you forever and always.

Come home to me soon. I need you in my arms. I love you, Tom. More than you'll ever know but as you always say, I look forward to showing you the rest of our lives. <3

Easter Eggs..

Tonight I stuffed eggs for our egg hunt on Sunday. I think I did 48 of them or so. I got stuff to fill Summer's basket and I also got some stuff to fill one for Ry, as I do every year. I aimed to small with the baskets though. I got cute fabric ones that are in the shape of a square. Riley's has aqua with flowers all over the sides and Summer's looks like a little lamb. It's really sweet. I showed it to her because she has an egg hunt as school tomorrow and needed a basket. I hope it's big enough. I think I'm going to go by and watch the activities. I got her the cutest dress covered in flowers to wear for the hunt. I can't wait to do the hunt at our house. It's funny watching Riley and Summer race for the eggs. I need to label them I think or Riley will have the entire lot.

I look forward to hearing about the goods you get for Easter. Your mom spoiled you. I get to send you the next round. :) What I sent along isn't as tasty but I think it will bring you a little bit of joy. I hope your day is going well. I love you my baby.

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“Love knows no limit to its endurance, no end to its trust, no fading of its hope; it can outlast anything. Love still stands when all else has fallen.”

Tooth!!!

Summer lost her first tooth tonight!!! I can't believe it!!! I remember when that tooth grew in! I can't believe it...Gosh she is growing up so fast. :)

The Last Supper discovery..

Christians have long celebrated Jesus Christ's Last Supper on Maundy Thursday but new research released Monday claims to show it took place on the Wednesday before the crucifixion.

Professor Colin Humphreys, a scientist at the University of Cambridge, believes it is all due to a calendar mix-up -- and asserts his findings strengthen the case for finally introducing a fixed date for Easter.

Humphreys uses a combination of biblical, historical and astronomical research to try to pinpoint the precise nature and timing of Jesus's final meal with his disciples before his death.

Researchers have long been puzzled by an apparent inconsistency in the Bible.

While Matthew, Mark and Luke all say the Last Supper coincided with the start of the Jewish festival of Passover, John claims it took place before Passover.

Humphreys has concluded in a new book, "The Mystery Of The Last Supper", that Jesus -- along with Matthew, Mark and Luke -- may have been using a different calendar to John.

"Whatever you think about the Bible, the fact is that Jewish people would never mistake the Passover meal for another meal, so for the Gospels to contradict themselves in this regard is really hard to understand," Humphreys said.

"Many biblical scholars say that, for this reason, you can't trust the Gospels at all. But if we use science and the Gospels hand in hand, we can actually prove that there was no contradiction."

In Humphreys' theory, Jesus went by an old-fashioned Jewish calendar rather than the official lunar calendar which was in widespread use at the time of his death and is still in use today.

This would put the Passover meal -- and the Last Supper -- on the Wednesday, explaining how such a large number of events took place between the meal and the crucifixion.

It would follow that Jesus' arrest, interrogation and separate trials did not all take place in the space of one night but in fact occurred over a longer period.

Humphreys believes a date could therefore be ascribed to Easter in our modern solar calendar, and working on the basis that the crucifixion took place on April 3, Easter Day would be on April 5

Sleepy Mommy

Hello Daddy,

Baby and I had a long night together. He kept me up most the night. We watched Grown Ups and some other silly movies that were on last night. He totally kicked my butt with his nausea present. It was horrible last night. But going to the dr today seemed successful. They told me what I could take and if it doesn't get better they can put me on something. Today we did another exam, bloodwork, and the ultrasound. I had some tenderness during the exam which prompted them to do another ultrasound. Not like I was going to say no to another ultrasound where I could see my baby. He was really moving around this time. He was all over the screen, it was great to watch. His heart was really visible this time. Beating at 167. He seemed to be pretty happy in his water bed. :p He has gotten SOOOO BIG baby. You won't believe it when you see. He's huge. :)

My talk with your mom last night went well. She seems to be doing well and your dad is in SF which I'm sure you know. I hear Jane is getting sooo big. She had sweet potatoes the other day for her first solid. Your mom said you had the same thing for you first solid. What happened? Now you hate them. Something clearly went wrong. LOL Our little monkey's gonna love ALL veggies. I can promise you that. She also told me you haven't called her. Give her a ring when you can. Or the next time you get a chance to call me, call her instead. It'll be good for both of you. Okies? Your grandma is doing better but your mom says they don't think she can live alone anymore. So they are going to try working that out soon. You can chat with her more to get more details.

Just a peak at what's going on in my tummy...

How your baby's growing:

Your new resident is nearly an inch long —about the size of a grape — and weighs just a fraction of an ounce. She's starting to look more and more human. Her essential body parts are accounted for, though they'll go through plenty of fine-tuning in the coming months. Other changes abound: Your baby's heart finishes dividing into four chambers, and the valves start to form — as do her tiny teeth. The embryonic "tail" is completely gone. Your baby's organs, muscles, and nerves are kicking into gear. The external sex organs are there but won't be distinguishable as male or female for another few weeks. Her eyes are fully formed, but her eyelids are fused shut and won't open until 27 weeks. She has tiny earlobes, and her mouth, nose, and nostrils are more distinct. The placenta is developed enough now to take over most of the critical job of producing hormones. Now that your baby's basic physiology is in place, she's poised for rapid weight gain.

Baby Bump

The Bump!! lol 9 weeks!

I'm a tolerant person...

After dinner tonight, Riley and Samantha started talking about how they are pro abortion. Going on and on about the debate they had with these girls who were against it and how they didn't know the facts. I sat quiet, not making any faces, comments, or noise. I listened respectfully and would have dropped the subject, until Riley poked a nerve... She said she would rather you kill and bean than to dump a LIVING child in the garbage! My CHILD is LIVING. HE HAS A HEARTBEAT, A BRAIN FUNCTION, TWO ARMS, TWO LEGS, AND SO ON!!!! Now...I appreciate the fact that we all have different opinions but when you start mocking me because you CAN'T be respectful of someone else's opinion, I get pissed off. I think that all babies should then die before their parents. They haven't lived as long, so it only makes sense........ Grrr  I think I'm also annoyed because they know I'm pregnant and they shouldn't be having that conversation around me. Riley is so selfish and unconcerned about other people sometimes. I'm glad they have their own thoughts. I kept my mouth shut. But don't be an ASSHOLE just because you can... When does she become responsible for her actions? I'm always saying, "I do so much for her...why? Why doesn't she show me the same respect?" which I am always lecturing myself for because that's what my parents always say. "I put a roof over your head, I feed you, I clothe you..." and that always bothered me because yes, you do, you're my parents. But I'm her sister. I don't have to do anything nor am I required...but I do because I love and respect her and just want the same respect back...When does that happen? When do i stop saying she's just young and immature...she'll get there... Sorry...I'm just hurt and annoyed..

Today just seemed to be an off day. Waking up late, getting to work actually early and being locked out, going through the retarded training having to do so many stupid things I'm not even gonna go there, then on the way home, I didn't realize the way I ALWAYS go to get out of Atlanta was an HOV exit and was a set up with a cop pulling cars over left and right giving them tickets. NO ONE KNEW! I had no idea why I'd been pulled over and he was a total jerk which wasn't necessary. At least it doesn't put any points on my record or hit my insurance but still................................. Ugh.. Being home with Summer makes it better but being stupid tired and nausea just adds to my annoyance. Don't get me wrong, I'm so happy to be pregnant, I'm just not used to having to deal with these effects. It's just hard doing daily stuff right now. I'm hopeful that after this next month and I'm out of my first trimester it'll be better. I just can't imagine what it'll be like working night shifts at Hoots and not getting off and home until 2 or 3 how I'm going to handle it if I can't get it under control... As you can tell, I'm being a pout. I'm sorry. I know what you are going through is so much more and I'm sorry I'm being a baby. Tomorrow will be better...

I hope your travels went well today. I hope you're getting settled in or at least know what you will be doing either for a short period of time or for the next few months. And I hope you're happy with it. Stay busy, but most of all, stay safe. I love you so much my baby and miss you terribly already. I kissed the baby for you. I can't wait til your home and can give him kisses yourself. :)

Nursery Ideas..

So...I can't help but have baby on the mind. I know we have 7 months before our little guy is here but...I'm assuming it's just like a girl who just gets engaged. She can't help but start planning everything right NOW! lol so bare with me.. So I was getting really disappointed with ALL the baby boy crib sets I was finding online. Lots of great girl ones but the boys just sucked. :( Until I came across this site. I'm in love with, like, all of them! Giggles. I'm gonna post my favs and I wanna know whatcha think.


I LOVE THIS ONE!!!!! I think doing an antique nursery (see the white box) would be really cool looking. And there is so much we could do with this because it's soooo simple!!


Cowboy theme!! I think it's obvious why I like this one!


Sock monkey! Just cuz it's fun!!!


Another of my favs! It's just so bright and fun~


I like this cuz its beachy and patriotic to me. Love it!

That's my start so far. I'm trying to see if I can find something patriotic..I think an american themed nursery would be very cool too but I literally can't find anything!!! I'm gonna see what it would cost to have one made. :)

Hello Handsome

Hello babylove,

I'm sorry I didn't post while you were awake. I was so sleepy and not feeling great. I promise I'll be better about posting. Baby's just gonna have to give mommy a break. Work today went a bit faster than yesterday. We didn't really get started until 3:45 because the other two girls were late. So we ended up getting out quarter to six. I knew practically everything that we went over so that made me more confident about tomorrow. Just ready to get it done with and rake in the cash lol. It'll be ok love. I can handle these idiots. No worries. :)

I hope things are going well for you. I know it's frustrating being stuck and not with your unit. But you're gonna get there and be busy as ever. Which I know you're excited about. I just hope I still get to talk to you occasionally. Lol.

I'm having a hard time writing anything interesting..I am so tired. I just want to go to sleep but it's barely 8pm. And I need to study menu and bar items...bleh. I'm sorry baby...

I'm gonna get on a little later and post something more fun and happy, I promise. Just know I love you so much baby and miss you terribly. Always in my thoughts..

BABY!!!!!

:D There's our squishy! He looks like a peanut. His head is to the center and his hiney is to the far right. His heart beat was 168 which is super fast which they said is excellent. And he's quite the lil acrobat! I'm soooo excited baby!!! I love you so much!!! And our new addition. :)

Giggles

Beach Days..

These are a few pics of Summer's beach adventures. I didn't get in any of the photos because I was behind the camera most of the time...and I may have planned it that way. ;p Summer made a new friend named Tenson. They played the entire time we were at the beach, building sandcastles, jumping over waves, digging trenches, and making icecream out of sand. Too cute! They held hands a lot too. We also  got to see dolphins and a few Portugese Manawhars that washed up onto the beach. They are really cool looking but I heard they sting like a....well, you know. People were so funny, running into the water after it....I was like...dude, they sting...but you go for it! While going through the pictures deciding which ones I was gonna upload, I came across one picture of me...Riley must have gotten it. I look miserable..mainly because I was. I had been sick all afternoon and had just come down from the room to sit with everyone on the beach for a bit. Silly, cranky Jenn.